As I sit here, fairly blissed out after a relaxing morning full of sunshine, a soul-warming breakfast and cozying up to my favorite beings (man and dog), I ponder this question: what to become next. It has been a very long (more than a year) since I have written in this space and so much has changed. I have changed and my direction/life goals have changed. As much as I change, my ” essential core” continues to resonate with me, yet I feel very far from the L that started this blog almost three years ago. I want to breathe into this space and allow it to change as well. Here are a few life updates that will give you a glimpse into the direction I am moving toward:
- I am no longer strictly vegan. I eat plant-based almost exclusively during the week, but I eat eggs and cheese with my significant other on the weekends. Just putting that out there in the spirit of full disclosure. Don’t worry though, this continues to be a no meat/seafood zone.
- I have changed the focus of my workouts from training for half-marathons to being active in a way that fills me with joy. Being active is free therapy for me; it helps me focus, it makes me feel amazing and full of energy. I truly thrive when I am active. It remains a necessary component in self-care.
- Creating wholesome, nutrient-filled plant-based food continues to be an essential component of cultivating happiness and joy in my life. I LOVE FOOD! I have created many new recipes over the past year, but many distractions have prevented me from documenting and sharing them here. Which brings me to…
- This has been a year full of ups and downs. High anxiety and stress-filled periods where I become a terrible version of myself, and then amazing periods of growth and self-discovery where I move toward a much brighter-burning version of myself. I ain’t perfect; I’m simply trying to continue onward.
This space has always been where I choose to express my creativity and passion: what keeps me going, what makes me smile and what makes me tick. What I love. What I feel. Basically, the stuff I actually give a damn about. I recently stumbled across a blog post that essentially boiled down to “Stop complaining about being unhappy/not living the life you want. You have the power to make time/space for the things that you love.” Of course, it was much longer and more eloquently stated than that, but it was an “aha!” moment for me. That little wake up call coupled with this strong, underlying, constant desire to fill an emptiness – the one that is yearning for a space to nurture the bubbling, sizzling, buzzing orb of my unused, pent-up creativity – steered me toward this empty white box. Here I am. Hello. 🙂
It’s important to me for this space to reflect who I am as I write, and I wanted to bring you all along for the ride. I’m not exactly sure what this space will become next but, as Joan Didion said, “I don’t know what I think until I write about it.” Buckle up, buttercup. We’re going to do some things over here.